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Goodbye
We’re no good at hiding secrets
This is one thing
I can say for sure
Is not worth keeping
My mom’s already calling my bluff
She can tell what’s up
That’s just how it goes
A mother always knows
Right?
My friends tried to tell me
That you would fail me
And that you most certainly did
But you also helped me
I needed to grow up
Because I never showed up
In the way I should have
In the ways I knew
That what we were up to
Was just no good
Now your wife’s calling me
I think she suspects everything
She knows I’m more than a peer
What we feared
It’s all finally here
I feel guilty
Simply empty
Your so-called love, our treachery
Wasn’t enough to fulfill me
I’ve got to let this go
Be on my own for a little while
You know
It’s been so long since I’ve seen myself smile
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Rebekah
You know my mother?
She would tell me this story
Of this woman in all of her glory
Going ‘round town
And wrecking havoc
In every naysayer’s path
She never cared
Didn’t matter when or where
She was gonna let you know
She was a ballerina
As a way of saying
She knew how to put on a show
They say extravagance
Is of the enemy
But that doesn’t matter, you see
Because the real villain here
Always was, always has been
And always will be
Those on the outside
Thinking they know what’s within
She’s standing on her tippy toes
And watching as the world goes
Because time stops for no one
Neither does she
She went by the rules of live and let die
But not before you send your neighbor the best goodbye
In the form of a cat dyed the color key lime
They say extravagance
Is of the enemy
But that doesn’t matter, you see
Because the real burden here
Were those who chose to pretend
They’ve never lived a day in sin
Thinking they know what’s within
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Here I Am
The light shines
And I don’t know why
It’s been a miserable night
Yet here I am
Wandering into your arms again
Because for as much insecurity as I have
You seem to want to be here
You seem to want to hang near
You seem to never have any fear
I don’t get you, but I do
Because I know me
The imposter syndrome speaks
But I make a breakthrough
Because for as much insecurity as I have
You feel right
You feel real
You watch me as I heal
Never going in for the unnecessary kill
As I pick myself up
The light shines
And now I know why
Yeah, It’s been a miserable night
But here I am
Standing one in one
With you again
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